In another life
A different choice can make all the difference.
A choice can be a split second decision or one that has time for preparation and planning. All, however, have a deadline. A point in time that the decision must be made.
This can lead the mind to wander an endless stream of thoughts, possibilities and what could be or more importantly should. Anxiety is an awful thing that can stem from all this pondering, nevertheless all this thinking is finite.
Thinking too long can lead to paranoia. Going with the gut is based on instinct and evolution. We have been told to lead with our gut. If something feels off, a majority of the time that is because it really is. Listening to our inner voice — our conscience if you will — is our innermost true feeling towards the matter, and right or wrong, is our best guess at that moment.
People with natural instinct stride in problems. Those intuned with themselves know what is best for them. At the end of the day, listening to all the proverbs and advice, no one knows what is best for us except us.
In my past, I have been given many choices. Those I have met with confidence, dealt with promptly and timely. Then there are those I deal with over time, some faced with angst and still never quite sitting right. I like to lead with a motto I’ve heard once:
Make a decision and whatever decision you make, make it the right one.
- Casey Neistat
That said, one of the most recent decisions I’ve made I still can’t quite get over. The decision to prolong a project that will only advance my self-growth and career. One that has been gnawing and eating away at me for quite some time.
I’ve set a goal, and while it’s within my reach, it’s a mountain that I’m hesitant to climb. There are gaps I must leap that I’m too afraid to run at and jump over. Overhangs that I never saw from the bottom that I feel are too difficult to get around. While there are shortcuts, I’ve set myself up on the path that is for me the most difficult. I look back and wonder what fool made this plan, this goal to achieve thinking that he could. But I know myself. I shoot so high that I don’t think I can and that is a major flaw. Because when you think you can’t, you won’t.
Now, I’m back to I can. This mentality is what will get me through my project. In another life, I would have been done and enjoying myself now. But I’m done reflecting on what could have been. That’s gone and it won’t ever come back. What I’m thinking again is what can be, what will be.
My advice to you — and it’s taken me too long to get here — is stop focusing on the past. Embrace it. Be fueled by it. Focus on today and tomorrow. Do your best, and do more than that when you can. Be the “Rickest Rick” (Spencerest Spencer) and be you every moment you can. You’ll be happy you did later.
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